Before joining TeamTank I had been on a weight loss journey of my own but when lockdown hit I lost all motivation and control. I began to put on weight I had previously lost and felt like there was no way forward. I have not always had the best relationship with food and previously when my life felt “out of my control” I experienced bulimia and used this to regain a feeling of control in my life. When lockdown wasn’t lifted at the beginning of 2021 and I was continuing to regain weight, the lack of control I had felt previously had returned and I had two options; allow bulimia to become an unhealthy and self-destructive coping mechanism once again or take back control of what I could and aim to become the best and strongest version of myself.
When I first joined, I was overwhelmed. I was expecting to be hardly eating, working out every day, basically run myself into the ground to see results which I would not be able sustain. But the reality was far from it; there was focus on giving my body the nutrition it needed to perform at its best to achieve the results I desired and to continue a new lifestyle and level of health. The team and Martin welcomed me and straight away I felt a part of the group and they have been with me every step of this journey. Although I was anxious about starting this process and developing new habits, I did not see failure as an option.
People keep telling me that they wish they had my motivation, but motivation did not get me where I am; discipline did. My journey has definitely had its highs and lows. From the highs of seeing results in pictures, trying new experiences I would never had done before, wearing styles of clothes I had feared I was “too fat” for and no longer needing a bracelet extender (or spanx haha). To the lows of self-doubt when progress wasn’t so obvious, not being able to binge when experiencing PMT and crying mid boot-camp (during knee thrusts if you’re interest) questioning whether this was worth it or not. I can tell you right now; it is absolutely worth it. I am absolutely worth it. And so are you.
Today I am the fittest, healthiest and strongest I have been; physically and mentally. The new habits and knowledge I have gained from this journey will stay with me and allow me to live a much healthier and altogether more fulfilling life. I am no longer held back by the fear of “what if’s”:
- What if I can’t do it?
- What if I don’t look good in that?
- What if people laugh at me?
Instead, I use the “what if’s” to push me forward:
- What if I succeed?
- What if I love it?
- What if I inspire someone?
The hardest part of my journey was starting and I am so grateful to my old self for reaching out to the right person for help. I am so proud of what I have done and can honestly say I am now the confident person that for so long I was only pretending to be.
If you are ready to make changes in your life you wont regret and want to see what you are capable of, I cannot recommend Martin and TeamTank enough.
Don’t be a little bitch.
Be a Boss Ass Bitch.